I sit here on a very cool gloomy day and it's that time again , I've just released a track called The Emptiness and I'm tasked to evaluate what it all means , bloody hell here we go .....
When I listen to The Emptiness now it kind of takes me back to 2020 , I wrote this song when I was pretty sad flowing between been ok and been downright depressed. Putting something out like this makes me feel somehow empowered but vulnerable at the same time , weird hey 😂
Last year because of border closures here in Australia and the impracticality of quarantine I was separated from my partner for over 9 months , it was hell . Don't get me wrong I appreciate the fact he could still work when so many others lost jobs, relationships, everything but I was extremely lonely and I kind of quietly lost it for a while there . To the world around me I probably looked like I was functioning , but I wasn't in a good place at all .
I've always turned to artistic expression to escape or vent and sometimes if I'm lucky to heal and move forward. So writing this song was one of those times and when I try to evaluate the Lyrics I realise I was looking inside to try and find happiness and fulfilment instead of trying to fill that void with drugs, alcohol , other people or material things .
So I guess music and artist expression is good for mental health because I truly do feel happy and liberated from putting this song out into the world . I don't really want to be putting sad things out there but if thats what came out in those moments creating this song then I feel obligated to roll with it .
A huge thank you to my fantastic band mates Joel Clement and Kalen Simpson .
And a very special thanks to Nathan Parise for laying down a little lead guitar on the track and the beautiful Viv Aisi for singing back up vocals for me xx