That one fan, that one moment that refuels the fire

' Art is standing with one hand extended to the universe and one hand extended into the world and letting ourselves be a conduit for passing energy' Albert Einstein.

Living as an independent artist is hard, the ebbs and flows, the highs and lows, it's a rollercoaster ride to say the least and some days you just ask why? why do I put myself through this? Yesterday was one of those days for me I guess, I was feeling frustrated that things aren't moving fast enough for me, frustrated that I put my heart and soul into my music with confidence only to undo myself when watching the metrics, looking at the numbers, glaring at the stats......i'm sure you get what I'm trying to say, it's a mental and emotional mind field .

I'm a big believer in manifestation and law of attraction , but I'm only human so when I have 'those' negative days it really gets me deep down. Don't get me wrong the positive stuff i'm so grateful for. The amazing people I’ve met through music, the experiences i've had , the positive interactions I've had with genuine fans, I count every single one as a blessing. But those bloody numbers ? 

But although yesterday was rough, before I went to bed I let it all go, I handed it back to the universe, I just couldn't deal with it any more. But I felt good, like relieved that I recognised the negative thought patterns that quickly spiral. I focused on all the positives and turned it around in my head. 

This morning a ray of sunshine was in my DM's , a lovely girl messaged me telling me I was her role model, an inspiration to her and that she loved my music, now hows that for timing ? my heart leaped for joy , I realised more than ever why I put myself through this, why I ride that rollercoaster every single day.......for her , thats it. If I can touch just one person like that, it's worth it ❤️ 

So next time you discover an artist you love, REACH OUT seriously it might be just the message they need at that exact moment in might be that one thing that refuels the fire. So now i'm feeling all warm and fuzzy and shit I'm going to record my new song ' Spread The Love ( like peanut butter ) yess it's actually called that ? 


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